Good morning world.
I miss school, I miss NUS, I miss the freedom and the friends I used to spend my time with in school. I’ve always felt that my 4 years in NUS were the most fun I’ve ever had.
I’m working now - in an office, 9-to-5 desk job - not literally 9 to 5 because technically I start work at 8:30 and finish at 6 so…. that’s a total of 1.5 hours more at work. Lol. It’s been 2 weeks - today marks the start of my 3rd week actually. But I still feel out of place - I feel like I don’t fit in, and I don’t feel happy at all. I haven’t had anyone to lean on yet, to have a hearty conversation with yet, to bond with yet. Is that bad? I think I should remain positive - just be myself, and when it is time to fit in, I will. But I think that it is slightly painful to always be stuck alone in a cubicle - with no one to talk to, except through a phone, through a computer. The only time of decent human interact are during lunchtimes. And lunchtimes are okay… I get to talk to people, but I don’t think we connect much? After all, it’s just 1 hour of eating and small-talk.
To my most awesome friends that I’ve made while being in college, I miss the days where we spend our time working on reports/projects/eating lunch together and spending the night (almost) in school. I miss the times where we sat in class, fighting the sleep monster. I honestly wish that you guys miss these times too - but in a good way, an endearing way and in a bittersweet way - not like mine. Mine’s…. a kind of missing that would border on being negative.
Think my writing skills suck. Haha, but I guess I feel better now. Sorta. I was so eager to get a job, to start working, felt so happy getting a job. I am grateful. But I just wish it could be better.